why? why?

if you know me you know that i HATE the dentist. not him personally, but just the whole experience. i am a wimp, and it doesn't help that i have awful teeth. i always have, and unfortunately probably always will. so my routine in the last ten years or so has been: get a tooth ache, go to the dentist and have a root canal or something else awful, then get so scared that i don't go back until i have to go again because i get another toothache. i have never been the type of person to stick to the twice a year cleaning schedule because i am just too scared. but a couple of months back i decided to go in and get a fresh start because it had been a few years (embarrassing i know) since i had had a routine cleaning. it was not fun, they had to do a crazy cleaning where they actually had to numb me and use drills just for a cleaning, but it was fine and i promised myself and my dental hygienist that i would floss every single day. so this is the reason for my post...why can i not do that? i can tell myself 100 times a day that i need to floss every night or i am going to continue to have problems, which then leads to going to the dentist for scary stuff to be done, but i can not seem to do it. i guess it is just like me eating healthy....i can tell myself 100 times a day that i am not going to have that bowl of ice cream at night, but i still do!

not that anyone cares, i just went in today for my third teeth cleaning in six months, and i had to admit that i am only flossing a couple of times a week and i really don't know why i can't do it. it is so frustrating to me and it is my own choice.......

"My First Baby" Survey.....

I was tagged by Danielle Garlock with this fun survey, enjoy:

Here you go mommies( and not mommies) - a different kind of survey for a change - it's all about you and your first baby.

My first look at my Bennett!

1. Were you married at the time? Yes, I got pregnant after 4 years of marriage!

2. What were your reactions when you found out you were pregnant? What have we done?!

3. How old were you? 26

4. How did you find out you were pregnant? pregnancy test of course.

5. Who did you tell first? Wade and then everyone i knew right after, can't keep a secret.

6. Did you want to find out the sex? Yes, I can't believe I had to wait 20 weeks to find out.

7. Due date? July 27, 2004

8.Did you deliver early or late? My water broke July 18th, so i was early, it was awesome.

9. Did you have morning sickness? Oh yeah! I had morning, afternoon, and evening sickness, awful.

10. What did you crave? Actually a craving would have been nice, i hated everything. Cereal was all i ate.

11. Who irritated you the most? Probably people i worked with that stared at me wanting to die every day, they thought i was totally faking it, i hated it.

12. What was your first child's sex? Male

13. How many pounds did you gain throughout the pregnancy? 35 pounds i think.

14.Did you have any complications during your pregnancy? Nope, just a lot of swelling at the end because it was a super hot summer.

15.Where did you give birth? Saddleback hospital, Laguna Hills, CA

16. How many hours were you in labor? My water broke at 6:30 am on July 18th, and Bennett was born 1:14 am on July 19, not sure what is considered labor, but that was a long day.

17. Who drove you to the hospital? Wade

18. Who watched? Wade, my mom, my sisters Tara and Monica.

19. Was it natural or c-section? Natural

20. Did you take medicine to ease the pain? Yes of course, an epidural even though i was so scared.

21.How much did your child weigh? 7 lbs. 14 oz.

22.Did your child have any complications? No.

23. What did you name him/her? Bennett Jex Decker

24. How old is your first born today? 3, he will be 4 on July 19th....already.

Bennett and I on his first day of life...

Okay Mommies...you've been tagged: Barbara, Karlin, Tiffany, Elizabeth, Wendy...no pressure.

Warning

This is just a warning, it may not apply to anyone but me, but i thought i would warn you. The other night when I posted my happy easter post I got a comment right away from someone named "Gardagami" and it did not have a comment it just said "see here or here" and you could click on a link. It literally came up the second i hit "Publish Post" so i was wondering who had already read it and posted a comment, so i clicked on the link. WELL, instantly it came up with a bunch of virus stuff and it freaked me out because i thought that i had gotten a really bad virus. Luckily my brother in law helped us figure it out, so i just deleted the comment and went on my way....well, that same person posted another comment today with the same thing on my happy easter post. I don't get it. So if you see that again, don't click on the link and this better not happen again.

Happy Easter...

A little early. We are heading out of town tomorrow for the Easter weekend. I was trying to decide which picture of the boys was worth posting, but they are all so silly, so here goes, why not post them all. They are never both looking or smiling, they look cute in some and silly in others. I always tell Bennett to keep looking and smiling because when Grayson looks i will snap it, so Bennett is faking a smile in most of them because he was sick of smiling for 20 minutes. And Grayson has a chocolate binky mark on his face because Wade fed him some of his twix he had gotten at church, nice huh? Anyways..............HAPPY EASTER!

We will miss you daddy!

MUCH NEEDED UPDATE...

this is so overdue and is probably going to be way to much info and boring, but for journaling purposes and to fill you all in on what we have been up to for the past few weeks...here goes:

wade- same old wade, busy with his new job, trying to make it all work out
sara- i have had a crazy few weeks, a couple of times a year i do some work from home for my old job and i have been working like a mad lady. it has been tiring, but i couldn't pass up on making a little bit of money even if it meant working crazy hours around the clock. i also got my wisdom teeth pulled two weeks ago, which wasn't very bad, and now i have been on the search for a post baby bathing suit....which is posing quite a dilemma!!! and last but not least i am back running and trying to decide if i should try and get into the st. george marathon???


the boys are silly and crazy as usual....




grayson- this little boy can eat! he can out eat bennett and will probably weigh more than him soon. i love his cheeks and his thighs. he also had to get ear tubes the same week that i got my wisdom teeth pulled, so that was not a fun week. he did great and has been happy as can be. he will be 1 next month...what is going on, my baby is grown up!

keep the food coming


grayson and his friend kaden going for a wagon ride

we have been to the beach already a few times and i am happy to admit that i think it will be a fun summer, first of all grayson will keep a hat on, which is huge, and bennett is loving playing in the sand and water, so besides the headache of getting myself and all of our stuff down to the beach i think it should be a fun summer!

bennett- what can i say to explain what is new with bennett? he is hilarious. he does not know how to filter what he says and never stops talking. he wants to know what everything turns into...like tonight he said at dinner, "mommy, what do carrots turn into?" how do i answer that? but seriously, almost every time we are in public he says something so ridiculous that i just have to laugh, here are a few of the latest:

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  in sacrament meeting at church on sunday he says loud enough for a few rows of people to hear.."mommy, church is boring, let's go home." (oops)


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  we went to lunch with my sister tara last week and we were eating and bennett says, "look at that scary monster." and i say "where?" just thinking he is making it up, so he points to a little old man sitting alone next to us with crazy hair and says, "that man right there with crazy hair!" (embarrassing)


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  we were shopping and i had to take my kids into the bathroom with me (what other options do i have?) and as i am going to the bathroom in a busy bathroom bennett asks why i am going poop. (seriously?)

so like i said...can i get a filter on this kid? 9 times out of 10 i laugh, but sometimes it is a little embarrassing. but he is still growing up to be a good kid.

we went to disneyland last week after a long time of not going and bennett had a blast, he is finally old enough to enjoy the rides. he won't admit it but he gets super nervous on all of the rides (proof above) and once it is over he begs to go on it again. we look forward to going a lot in the next couple of months before school gets out.

bennett wants to play all day long, starting in the 5 o'clock hour he thinks it is time to play. he played with his cousins and they made a "pillow house" so now he wants to build one every night and sleep in it. this little boy thinks life is one big game, hope it lasts.....maybe he could push it into the 7 am hour instead of 5 though!

bennett's photography- bennett has decided that he loves to take pictures. at first i didn't want him using my camera, but then i decided it would be fun to see what he captures, i told him he has to take pictures of stuff, not just the floor or the wall, here are a few of latest pics:

his markers

his toes

me (and my see through shirt) and grayson...ha ha.

we will try to be better about updating more often, but we have been busy and rather boring lately! sorry.

I know...I know...

i know that i need to update my blog, but for the past two days i have tried downloading pictures and it keeps saying..."server error"...so until that is fixed my blog will not be updated. why is it doing that?