Orange County.....Florida
That is where i am right now, Orange County, Florida. I REALLY wish I was in Orange County, Ca right now. If you would have asked me a month ago where I would be today I would have NEVER in a million years thought I would say..."I will be in a nice hotel on a week long WORK trip in Florida." Yes, that is right, I said a work trip. For those of you that don't know, my life has changed DRASTICALLY in the past three weeks. In a nut shell, Wade has had a hard year at work, a GREAT job opportunity became available to me, Wade lost his job...and there you have it, next thing I know I am working full-time. Talk about shock. It all happened over night. One day i was at home with my kids and the next day i had to be at work all day. I know what many of you must be thinking, "how could she possibly leave her kids all day and go to work?" Believe me, I have gone through every possible feeling, I have cried, accepted it, felt really proud that I'm able to support my family, cried some more. I've already considered quiting a lot of times, BUT what choice do I have? My family needs me, so I gotta do what I gotta do. I KNOW that this won't be forever, but for the time being I feel like I am in a twilight zone, living somebody elses life. Although I have been a wreck without my kids, there have been a few perks...like, driving in the car and listening to my own music, going to lunch without kids and enjoying the food, SO many free clothes for myself and the boys already....hey, if I'm gonna work I will take all the perks I can get. The worst part and the reason I am writing this post is that I had to come to Florida for a week for a tradeshow and it is only two weeks after I started working. I was not prepared to leave my family for a week, AND more importantly my family was not prepared for me to leave, mainly Wade. Can you imagine him at home with the boys for a week? I feel so bad, I have never been alone for even one night without Wade since we had the boys. I can't even imagine. But, that is where I am. Alone in Florida....in lightning and thunder storms, working away. I hope it doesn't last long, hopefully I will be at the park again living the life as a stay at home mom again. The moral of my story: The grass is always greener on the other side................... miss you all!
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I seriously miss you so much! I can't even explain!! Taylor played with Bennett today, I took them to the park after preschool, then Wade kept Taylor while the twins took a nap! It was so nice, but Wade kind of got screwed in the situation if you ask me?! I hope you are able to relax there! Hurry home!!
I am going to call Wade tomorrow and see if he wants to drop off the boys for a few hours to have some free time. I know they are probably missing you but they love their dad and are in heaven with him home for a change I bet. Sometimes life throws curve balls at us. You are taking your curve ball well!!! xoxo miss ya!
ok, I am about to start crying right now. I have really missed you in all parts of my day. It's not the same without you being out and about with us. I miss running with you and I miss just seeing you. You are doing such a great job, though, and I really impressed with how you have stepped up to the plate. You should pat yourself on the back. I know it must be so hard to leave the boys, but, like you said, it won't be forever. Enjoy those perks while you got em, eh? You are awesome and we are rooting for ya! Careful over there in Florida!
ps. you can dump any extra perks over here if they are piling up too fast! =) LUCKY!
Oh Sara... you are awesome!! I can't imagine. What are you doing for Volcom? They better be paying you what you deserve. What a sacrifice but you've got to do what you got to do. The grass is greener on the other side isn't it? It is really good for Wade and your boys to spend time together. Jason would not survive if he had the kids all day, let alone all week. But I probably wouldn't be able to support us either so it's really awesome that you can. I'm proud of you. I'm sure it hasn't been easy... keep hanging in there!!
Kay - you made me cry. I get so crazy annoyed with the kids sometimes that I wish I was the one who could leave everyday - but even just reading about it actually being a reality for someone is hard enough - Not that it is a consolation for you at all - but you are helping the rest of us to realize how grateful we should be (and are) for the blessings in our lives. And it sounds like it was pretty amazing how your little family was watched over - even amidst a trial. Things have been rather stressful here too - bill has definitely had to venture out to find something that will work for now until this economy turns . . .we'll cross our fingers for us all!! We love you guys and will keep you in our prayers.
Good luck in Florida. Wade told us about the switcharoo when he came over last Sunday. I didn't think much about it but when you say you're in Florida for a week, wow! That's crazy. You are awesome to take this on, I already hate going to work and I don't have little kiddos at home. I am impressed.
I miss you too! You are doing what you have to for your family and you should be proud. I'm sure it is sad being without the boys but it won't be forever. Just keep that in mind. You have to do what you need to for your family. I'm going to call you to set up playdates with Bennett after school.
Oh my gosh Sara, I can't believe what a change this must be for your family. You are a hard worker though and you'll do just fine, and I am sure Wade is going to enjoy the change for a little while. Be grateful that you were able to find a job right away. Good luck and I am sorry about the job loss for Wade.
Lea
i love you. i think what you are doing is wonderful. you and wade are great. stay clear of IKE.
You are seriously so awesome Sara! Your right the grass is always greener! and sometimes blessings don't really feel like blessings. Be careful over there!
Sara-
I hope I am not going to sound like a stalker. I browse through random blogs here and there, and have been "following" yours for a bit. (Ok, I guess I just defined stalker). One of the reasons I kept coming back was that I was a nanny in college, and I kept two little boys, and the youngest looked *exactly* like Grayson--big boy--ALL boy--and he had my heart.
I just had to comment today abot your most recent post-- from one woman to another--GO YOU! I know this is a tough time, and so many changes so fast, but it is amazing and brave that you are stepping up. I have gone through layoffs before, and I know how crazy and unexpectedly your life can change. Anyway, best to you and your family--and hang in there. It is all happening for a reason.
Sara- I had no clue. The girls just filled me in the other day. I am sure this is hard on you and your whole family. But it seems like your family is taking it well. It sounds like heavenly father was really taking care of your family. When one door closed another one opened right back up. I am sure the shock of the door being opened for you was a major one. But I think you and wade will be able to appreciate one another. And like you said, it is for a short bit. Good luck friend. I am very proud of you. I Know how hard this must be. I w ill cry along with you!
Sara you are so awesome! You have always been able to pull out of any situation, ever! I have always admired your strength and I am sure it will go a long way through this trial. Maybe in Oct I'll just have to come meet you for lunch in Newport. You can do anything! CALL me when you get a chance I would love to talk!! LOVE YOU LOVE YOU
You know what I think about this whole thing. I just want to remind you that you are a rockstar and not many of us stay home mommies would be able to help our hubbies out as much as you are if we needed to. Wade is a lucky man to have you and your boys do NOT love you any less for working. See you soon my dear. :)
Sara, I had no idea, I was wondering why I hadn't seen you in so long. First let me just say that you are SO awesome and strong for stepping up to the plate and doing what you needed to do for your fam. So many other people wouldn't even be able to do that at all because they aren't prepared so you rock for being a strong educated woman who can do what has to be done. And what a good experience for Wade to know how hard your "real" job is too! Sometimes I wish all husbands could have a little taste of that.
You are amazing! I cannot imagine the feelings you must be going through. Keep up the good work!
Sara, thanks a lot for making me cry! My heart goes out to you and your family during this "switcharoo" time. I admire both you and Wade, and my hat's off to you both. Hang in there my friend. xoxo
I've been thinking about you both and just think you are both so great. Way to go Sara! Apparently this is what the Lord had in store. It all happened just a little too coincidentally don't you think! It'll all make sense soon. There's a reason for this and so much learning for everyone involved!...I'm sure very hard though. Let me know if we can help! Maybe Wade should bring the kids up here and live in his dream home(ha ha) with us for a couple days? xoxo. This will be over soon I'm sure!
I'm glad we "talked" the other day :)
We have been praying for you every night... and for Wade! Hope that you are coping. We miss you!!
Monica told me you went back to work full time for Volcom. I know it's got to be hard to be away from the boys. I'm dreading leaving Kenzie in 4-8 weeks. Makes me cry every time I think about it. Plus, I can't find childcare.
Miss you too! Good luck, and please call me if you need anything!!!
I am sorry to hear about Wade's job, but isn't it awesome that you are educated and were able to fill in when the time came. Todd and I were just talking about this downward spiral of an economy and how I would definitely be going back to work if something happened to his job. We were so grateful I had something that we could fall back on. It's tough to be away and working, but you are the bomb and I am sure things will be back to the way you guys want them in no time. Enjoy florida and the perks, I get no perks with my job unless you think throw-up is one:) Are you still running in St. George?
You are quite a tough woman. I will pray for you!
Hey! Adrienne told me about your new "situation" and after reading this post, I don't know who's more upset about it -- you or her! She is constantly telling me how much she misses talking to you everyday. Hang in there!
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